Friday, January 28, 2011

I heart Fridays!

So I've gotta say...

But who doesn't, right?!? :)

I'm in a much better mood/place than I was at my last post. Life is still busy, but I'm dealing with my stresses at work differently (better, I'd like to think). 

I took a weekend off from Facebook, and it was a welcome break. Funny how it changes your perspective. I guess I feel a little more private with my life... like I don't want to share everything with the world anymore. I don't need to. Others validation isn't what is going to make me feel better - my own validation is what I need!

Today I'm signing up for Planet Fitness. Since leaving our apartment complex, I no longer have the free gym to work out at. I still can drive 30 minutes to Patrick AFB and use the gym for free, but that's a little too far with my schedule. So, I discovered a Planet Fitness 10 minutes from our new house, and 6 minutes from my office! It's time to do it... I've been seriously slacking in the workout department, and looking for something new to get me motivated again.

I know a few bloggers who go to PF... I'm wondering if signing up for the "black card" is worth it? It seems like it to me... you get free tanning, massage chairs, and you can bring guests (um, hello Hubby who never works out! lol) It's $20 a month, but no up-front fee. Also, right now I pay $16 a month for online Weight Watchers, and I'm thinking about cancelling that...which will make it about even anyway! Thoughts from you PF veterans out there?

Tonight I'm (hopefully) going to hit up my new gym, get my nails done, and then have a fun evening with my friend driving all the way over from Tampa - Jen! So excited that she's coming over!

Happy Weekend Everyone!

Thursday, January 20, 2011

I'm in a mood

Ok guys, I'm seriously in a mood. I've been in one for a while now, and it's still goin' strong.

I apologize now if you are one of those people who never post anything negative on your blog, your facebook, or wherever you post. I do. And because it's my blog, I can. If you don't like it, please do us all a favor and stop reading now.

First of all, there's facebook. I actually just posted this status:

i'm not one of those people who go through and delete friends regularly. in fact, i've never done it. but i'm slowly feeling the need arise... that, along with a break from fb for a while. some people are seriously annoying.
I don't know if it's me taking things too personally, or if I'm just feeling the need to purge, but there's a need to do something. I'm not going to name specific details because god knows I've pissed off enough people this week alone, and I learn from past experience quite well. But there are things/people who are at the top of my "irritating" list right now, and I need to take a break. Starting tomorrow, I'm not getting on all weekeend. You have my word. I know that doesn't seem like much, but we'll see how it goes.

I've had this strong attitude latley of just "being who I am", and if you don't like it, you can shove it. In so many words, I wish I could say that to everyone right now. I also work really, really hard at everything I do. I am professional at work, I'm a loyal friend, and I love my family. I manage to find time to work full time, go to school full time, cook dinner, clean the house, play with the dogs, and exercise most days of the week. That's just who I am. I'm not sure how that's relevant to my tirade, but I feel the need to say it.

My husband has this "friend" (I'm using that term lightly) who constantly puts people down. This person minimizes everything you do, because what they do is better. This person knows everything about everything. Even if they've never done it, and you have a lifetime of experience doing said activity, they still know more about it than you do. Let me tell you, this gets super duper annoying really fast. I could give you at least 20 specific examples of this in the past month. But like I said before, the guilty shall remain nameless.

Second, there's people at work. So I'm managing this conference, right. It is less than a month away and it's seriously crunch time. We really need a production team running it, and it's being run by 3 people in the office, with me being one of them. We just got out of a meeting with the "team" who is supposed to being doing their thing, you know, taking responsibility and getting shit done. Well I discovered in this meeting that one individual had not followed-up with someone who had offered to make a donation to/sponsor the conference, even though I had given him the contact information twice. I sort of got onto him, but nothing much. I then asked his assistant to make sure he contacts that individual. Well, after the meeting his supervisor comes up to me and says "You know, it really is inappropriate to call someone out like that in a room full of people..." blah blah blah. Oh, stop defending him for not doing his job. He doesn't get off the hook any more than I would. I'm busting my ass to make this conference a success for our agency, and he can't make a damn phone call. Finally, his supervisor had the nerve to say "Well, you should have known not to give a job like that to a man."

*ahem* You'll excuse me.

I'm sorry, what did you say?

A MAN?!? Does that mean I can stop doing what I'm doing because "I'm a woman" and shouldn't be expected to be responsible for all of this crap???? I'm sorry, is that what you're saying?? Maybe I misunderstood you. Seriously.

This is when maintaining my composure and remaining professional is something I whisper under my breath like Brick just to remind myself of it's importance. Bite my tounge. Remember I'd like to still have a job tomorrow.

And move on.

I guess what I said earlier about everything I do in the day, is because I expect the same level of excellence and professionalism from everyone else. I expect to be able to speak my mind, and for the receipient to be strong and smart enough to argue it out with me if they don't agree. If you have an opinion, stick to it. Do your best work every day. I do. If you don't, I don't have much respect for you, nor will I cut you any slack.

If you have something to vent about on your blog, then girl, you can vent. If you are frustrated about something, feel free to say it.

Last I checked it's a free country.

"Excellence is not a skill. It is an attitude."
~Ralph Marston

Wednesday, January 19, 2011

100 Things

The Huffington Post lists 100 things to make 2011 the best year of your life. As I read over these, I loved each one of them. Some are so profound, and some, so simple. I think it could take a lifetime to give each one the attention it deserves.

Read them. Think about them.

Part of me wants to break these up into 2 a week (or 8.333333333333 a month :) and actually do them. Have examples of each. Just a thought.


1. Know that you have a mission.

2. Gain perspective.

3. Embrace challenges.

4. Surround yourself with people who are on the same page.

5. Seek out mentors who can inspire your path.

6. Define your personal and professional boundaries.

7. Clarify what your skills are worth.

8. Reinvent yourself.

9. Think of yourself as a corporation.

10. Learn to act instead of react.

11. Take advice only from people who've been in your shoes.

12. Eliminate distractions.

13. Grow your focus.

14. Watch your thoughts. They play a role in your reality.

15. Pay attention to details.

16. Learn to listen more.

17. Look beyond appearances.

18. Practice more gratitude.

19. Increase your stamina.

20. Meditate. If you don't, learn.

21. Know your priorities.

22. Write out your goals in full. Be specific.

23. Under-promise and over-deliver.

24. Keep your word.

25. Maintain integrity.

26. Take a leap of faith.

27. If you have a dream, go for it.

28. Keep your plans to yourself.

29. Speak less and do more.

30. Don't settle.

31. Take time to smell the roses.

32. Go to sleep early.

33. Make that phone call.

34. Need help? Ask.

35. Make your own opportunities.

36. Refine your mannerisms.

37. Be mindful of what you accept into your mind.

38. Read more.

39. Think savvy but be humble.

40. Accept your present situation as is. It won't last forever.

41. Flow instead of resist.

42. Surrender.

43. Have faith.

44. Be a leader.

45. Remember that money is not everything, but satisfaction is.

46. Be authentic.

47. Expect more from yourself.

48. Remember that you are the creator of your destiny.

49. Apply more passion to everything that you do.

50. Define your vision.

51. Remember that patience is a virtue.

52. Breathe when in doubt.

53. Remember that perseverance is king.

54. Stay motivated and pass it on.

55. Speak with more clarity.

56. Declutter your environment.

57. Make time to be with family.

58. Remember that every setback is a set-up.

59. Be more creative.

60. Think outside the box.

61. Don't follow the herd.

62. Carve out your own niche.

63. Be bold. Be brave.

64. Trust your instincts.

65. Know your worth.

66. Ignore your haters.

67. Don't brag. Let your efforts speak for themselves.

68. Remember that timing is everything. Don't give up.

69. Use more logic than emotion.

70. Cultivate discipline.

71. Know your values.

72. Beware of temptation. It comes in many forms.

73. Think twice before you act.

74. Know your weaknesses.

75. Acknowledge the one/ones who gave you an opportunity.

76. Say "thank you" to everything -- the good, the bad and the ugly.

77. Be the kind of person you'd want to meet.

78. Say no to distractions.

79. Follow your bliss.

80. Remember that clarity precedes manifestation.

81. Remember that your life matters, and you matter.

82. Remember that failure is not a option.

83. Surround yourself with people who know more than you.

84. Eliminate jealousy.

85. Eliminate competition from your mind.

86. Do not compare yourself with others. It will cost you.

87. Eliminate shortsightedness.

88. Practice long-term thinking.

89. Build credibility.

90. Remember that greed is not an ally.

91. Build your life on your terms.

92. Take care of yourself.

93. Know your opponents.

94. Know your limits.

95. Preparation invites opportunity.

96. Take responsibility. Refuse to cast blame.

97. When in doubt, walk away.

98. Ask for what you want.

99. Remember that love knows where to find you.

100. Remember that determination unlocks the door to your potential.

Tuesday, January 18, 2011

Sometimes ...

... it's the little things that mean the most.

"Our lives begin to end the day we become silent about things that matter."-- Martin Luther King Jr.

Friday, January 14, 2011


It’s a four letter word
a place you go to heal your hurt

It’s an alter, it’s a shelter
one place you’re always welcome

A pink flamingo, double wide
one bedroom in a high rise
a mansion on a hill

Where the memories always will
keep you company
whenever you’re alone

After all of my running
I’m finally coming ....


Wednesday, January 12, 2011

Truth and Jealousy

I went to bed about 30 minutes ago. I'm laying here and get a brainstorm for a blog, so I text Eric to bring me his laptop. (yes he's in the living room a few steps away... so? ha!) Here goes nothing.

I'm jealous.

I'm jealous of the people holed in up north and their "snow days" who are getting paid not to work.

I'm jealous of my dogs sleeping at my feet without a care in the world.

I'm jealous of my friends going on "fab" girls trips.

I'm jealous of those who have enough money to spend on said fab trips.

Earlier tonight I was struggling with being content. Hence, the word "jealous" you see so many times here. I tried to shove it down, and tell myself that I am perfectly happy being a "homebody" who likes hanging out with her husband and dogs, watching Tosh.0 and Modern Family on a Wednesday night. I'm ok with cooking dinner, doing some schoolwork, and watching tv. I have a happy life and a great job.

I'm content with that.


As I crawled into bed and pulled out my phone to peruse Facebook one last time, there it was again. The reminder that I'm not the popular girl planning trips all over the country at a moments notice. The reminder that most of my friends and family live far away. The reminder that even if I had been invited on a "fab" girls trip, I would probably feel left out because I'm not like them. I love them - they're my friends - but I feel like I don't fit in with them anymore sometimes. I can't explain it.

Eric brought me roses at work today, and then he took me out to lunch.

We just bought our first house on McClain Drive.

Eric just started a new job, which he loves, but doesn't leave him much room to take any time off in the next several months.

I couldn't go on a fab girls trip anyway, because I'll be managing a national conference with over 250 people attending... all counting on me. I can't wait. I've been planning this thing for months, and it will be the experience of a lifetime... a totally incredible opportunity. I seriously can't wait. February 16-18, 2011.

But see, it took me all evening to remember... those are the things that make me lucky. As I was telling Eric how jealous I am of these other people as he kissed me goodnight, he said, "Babe, I don't know what to say to make you feel not jealous of them."

"The only way I wouldn't feel jealous anymore is if I was going on a "fab" trip with MY girls."

"Well... you can take a fab trip to McClain Drive."

Somtimes, the truth hits you like a ton of bricks. Eric was joking, of course, but I don't think he realized the truth he was telling.

See, here is where I'm happy. It's home. It has everything I love.

Right now I can't afford to go anywhere, much less pay my hairdresser for some highlights. I have a crazy, full-time job that I love, I go to school full-time, and I honestly wouldn't trade it for anything else. Sure a trip would be nice, and I am hoping to plan one sometime this year, but it may just be something small.

But for now, I'm ok with that...with our life. It's ours. We've made it ours, and will continue to do so for the rest of our lives.

We'll  just pop open a bottle of wine and have a date in the hot tub... on our back porch.

I'm the luckiest girl in the world.

Tuesday, January 4, 2011

Update on things...

As promised, here are some more pictures of the house! I didn't get everything I wanted to get done this weekend, but we did quite a bit.

First of all, the main living room. We stayed up one night/morning painting until 5AM just to get it done (we did the 2nd living room too, pics later).




I have pictures hanging on the other wall too, but I suck at taking pictures so you can't see them! LOL

Also I plan to get these up soon in the kitchen to replace the ugly lights:

And one side of the master bedroom - no pics hung in there yet:

Today is my official "back to the routine" day. My classes start up again, and I'm back to my running routine. I set my alarm for 6AM and almost didn't get up to run, but I'm happy to report that I made it! :) I treated myself to a non-fat salted caramel hot chocolate on the way to work too.

I hope everyone had a happy new year! I spent Friday night with my in-laws and we went out in downtown Orlando for some drinks. We came home just in time to watch the ball drop on TV, and I stayed up until 2AM watching the performances after that.

Since Eric was working, I sent him this "new years kiss"! LOL!

This is the second year since we've been married (that I can remember) that we've been apart for New Years.The first year we were married he was in Iraq so I kissed my friend Sarah's dog at midnight.

Yeah, she loved it.

Last year we were together!

This year I picked up my dog Amira and gave her a little kiss for old times sake... haha! I'm sure there will be many more New Years Eve's where Eric will be working, so I don't mind kissing the puppies. Haha.

As for the standard "new years resolutions", I, for one, don't normally make resolutions in a new year. Many years ago I was tired of all the hype about suddenly trying to change your life and habits just because it's the first day of the year. Personally, I'm more successful at starting up new habits at random time throughout the year, like on a Wednesday in May or something. I usually don't tell anyone, I just do it. For whatever reason, it works for me.

I wasn't going to do a "reflection" post back on 2010 because, well, everyone does it and it's kinda ... cliche. Plus who wants to look through their news feed and see all these 2010 reflection posts? Haha... maybe I just wierd. But I was looking back through my Facebook pictures last night and realized we did so much in 2010 that I just have to reflect on it! I'll hopefully get that post together later this week. :)

Happy Tuesday everyone!