Tuesday, December 28, 2010

House update!

I hope everyone had a Merry Christmas! Mine was very backbreaking busy with HOUSE STUFF! :)

We closed on December 20th, and moved in that night with the help of friends and family. I stayed up until 2AM unpacking most of the kitchen. Thankfully I had taken the entire week off... I needed it! The next day we took down the awful palm tree wallpaper in the kitchen/dining room and painted soon thereafter.

Here's a "before" shot, you can see some of the wallpaper left...

And after:

I love it so much! We painted it red, and replaced the light fixture. I also bought a painting for the right side of the wall that isn't in this picture, and I still want to get some decor for the cutouts in the wall.

Also done is the guest bathroom:

And the office:

Both living rooms are in progress ... should be done by this weekend. I'll post before and after pictures then.

In progress is the master bedroom:

We painted it Monday night a grey color, now I just need to decorate... which could take a while because I'm not sure what I want! We have a gorgeous bedset that I still need 6 pillows for, and I want pictures, etc. for the walls.

Guest room is a horrible peach color that will need to go away soon!

(apparently the pups don't mind the color! lol)

That's it for now! I'm back at work today, and it feels good to have a routine again. I can't wait to go for a run tonight... it's been 2 weeks! I'm still not "in sync" with the new house (I feel like I'm always forgetting to do something before I leave ...) but I'm sure it will happen eventually. We're getting a security system installed tomorrow which will make me sleep better at night when Eric is working!

I hope everyone had a wonderful holiday with their family, friends, or whoever they spent them with! What are your new years plans?? One guess as to what I will be doing...... painting the living rooms! :) Ha!

Tuesday, December 14, 2010

My life

five days till we move...five days till we move...five days till we move...five days till we move...five days till we move...five days till we move...five days till we move...five days till we move...............

Monday, December 13, 2010

Needed: Christmas menu items!

Hi again! It's crazy around here, between this being my last full week of work for the year, painting, (we're only done priming the apartment, gotta finish painting on Wednesday night after work!) packing, moving, school and menu planning for Christmas! That's where I need some help...

I was stressing the other day about what to make for Christmas dinner, as I'll have only been in our new house for 4 days and will still be unpacking and painting. My hubs family and grandparents are coming over too. That's when the hubs suggested I get a ham from Honeybaked Ham since there is one right up the street from our new place! What a brilliant idea! It kinda sucks that a regular ham and a small turkey breast are like $80, but I'll pay for conveince this time (also because I don't even know how to cook a ham).

I'm getting the HoneyBaked Delicious Duo:

Now, I need ideas for side-dishes! I feel like every idea I have is coming from Thanksgiving, and I don't want to do the same things. My MIL is probably making green bean casserole and mashed potatoes. I need other ideas, along with dessert! Help please? ;)

I'd like my table to look like this for Christmas, ok? Thanks! :)

Thursday, December 9, 2010

My first night as a deputy sheriff's wife

I was finishing up a project in the conference room yesterday, when the receptionist escorted my husband into the room. I looked up, surprised because I wasn't expecting him. The surprised turned immediately to pride when I saw that he had on his new deputy sheriff uniform and was headed to his first night on the job. I was glad he stopped by so I could kiss him goodnight, because I wouldn't be seeing him until 7AM the next morning.

After work as I was driving home, I was anxious. I chided myself because I shouldn't be, and I knew that. I've been here before. I've seen my husband off to war, for goodness sakes. I should be able to handle this.

I decided to go for a long run to clear my head, but I didn't have much time before the grocery store closed, so I knew I needed to do my shopping for the next 2 weeks quickly. The run was more important than food, I decided. I ran for 3 miles in the cold until my ears froze and my lungs burned. It felt so good. It was getting dark, but I was on the Air Force base so I felt safe. I was still worried about Eric, and I wondered if how I felt about him is how he felt about me running in the dark. Hmm.

I didn't have much time to cool down, so I hopped in the car and sped to the grocery store. I hadn't even written out my list like I normally do - I had to go off of the 5 or 6 recipes I had printed out. But I rushed up and down each isle in 30 minutes, and got to the checkout line just as the announcer said "The Patrick Air Force Base Commisary is now closed..." Success.

As I crawled into bed that night, my legs still sore from the envigorating run, my mind wouldn't shut down. I knew it would be this way. I'm not sure that will ever change. My worry has nothing to do with being home alone, because I know that if anyone gets past Layla, I have my friends Glock and Mossberg on either side of me, and nobody is gettin' past those boys. No... this worry is 100% for Eric. I can try to reason with myself, and draw from my "knowledge" that he's been trained, he's like overly-safe, and most of all God is protecting him. I know these things. But sometimes that's not enough.

Finally, after pointlessly lusting after shopping for Louboutions on my phone for about 30 minutes, I drifted off to some restless sleep.

I woke up this morning at 7AM to our home phone ringing. Ok. The home phone never rings unless it's a salesperson or my boss. It also never rings at 7AM. Here's my thought process in the span of about .7 seconds while I'm literally running to answer it. "Who is calling on the home phone? Omg, Eric should be home by now. Maybe it's him. Omg, why is he calling the home phone? Maybe it's someone else ... but why would they be calling? Shit, if Eric got hurt on his first day on the job, I swear..." I checked the caller ID and it was indeed Eric's cell calling. Good thing, because if it was Osceola County Sheriff's Office calling I probably wouldn't have picked up.


"Hey babe."


Turns out he just didn't press the right button when he called me. Yeah, ya think?

So he's on his way home, he'll be there in about 45 minutes, so I'll have 15 minutes to see him before I have to leave for work and not see him again until tomorrow. Sigh.

I'm all showered, dressed and had just turned off the hair dryer exactly when he walks in the door. "Perfect timing", I thought. He'd even brought me a Chic-Fil-A sandwich. How sweet. We hug, kiss, he starts telling me about his day and I go to fill the dogs bowl up with food.

"So, a deputy was killed last night."

I froze, turned around, and was just about to give him my "yeah right" face and subsequently chide him for even joking about that sort of thing, when I realize he's not joking.

He proceeds to tell me that it was an Orange County deputy (I breathe a little sigh of relief that it wasn't Osceola County... and feel so grateful that he didn't accept the job with Orange County...) who was shot in the head during a routine traffic stop, and died instantly. He was only 27 yrs. old and had been with the sheriff's office for 4 years. He was married to another deputy who was not working that night. They don't have any kids. You can read about it here if you would like.

I listened to the rest of his stories with a steeled face, distracting myself with Facebook for a few minutes, pretending to listen. It's not that I don't care, it's just that I'm just not sure yet if I want to know all about what goes on in his job. It's just like when he was in Iraq and I couldn't handle him telling about each time there was a mortar attack, so at my request he stopped telling me. This might be a similiar situation.

As I kissed him goodbye this morning, I couldn't help but feel a tinge of guilt that my husband is still alive, and hers isn't. I'm not sure if it was guilt, or more pain with the realization of how close this falls to home.

This is why I jump when the home phone rings. This is why I probably won't ever sleep very well when he's working at night. I can't figure out what to feel yet... if I should shove the fears down and be all "that's part of the job", or be fearful and worried all the time.

I know. Neither of those are right or good. But go ahead and try tell me that there IS a correct way to feel about this.... because I don't believe there is. There is no rational, sane or balanced view on how to focus your mind when your husband is out there catching bullets. And for what it's worth, I think this is very different than him being in the military, but that's a story for another day.

And so begins my life as a deputy sheriff's wife.

Tuesday, December 7, 2010

It FEELS like Christmas in Florida!

This morning I had to scrape ice off of my windshield before I could drive to the gym! I love weather like this - it actually makes it feel all Christmasy and wintery. It sucks that I can't run outside in the morning (if it were like 20 degrees warmer, that would be perfect) but I will deal with it for a few days. I say a few days because that's how Florida is - by the weekend it'll probably be back in the 70's! Gotta love it!

Besides the weather being super cold, it's been hard for me to get into the Christmas spirit. I'm not going to see my family this year, and we'll be moving the week OF Christmas (which means cleaning/unpacking/decorating that entire week I took off of work!). Don't get me wrong, I'm totally excited about our first house! It hasn't set in that in 13 days we'll be homeowners! But I'm just not "feeling" Christmas like I normally do. I can't relax and wrap gifts, I have to pack. I can't decorate or set up our tree because we're moving. I'm having Eric's whole family over for Christmas day and I don't even know what I'm cooking! (*gasp*) So needless to say, reading all these "Christmasy" blogs isn't super exciting for me this year. Hopefully I'll be back and better than ever next year!

I'm trying to keep this in my mind! ... it's our new house! Yay!

I do need an opinion on something though. Remember a few months ago when Layla chewed a hole in our carpet down to the cement?

Here's a friendly reminder in case you've forgotten...

Lovely, huh? It's hard to believe this innocent baby face did that, right? (Trust me, you don't know her)

Ok well here's my dilemma. We haven't told the apartment complex about it yet. We're moving out in 13 days and they have to "inspect" the apartment right? Well, Eric is supposed to call them this week and ask if we will have to pay or do anything about it. But here's my thing. We've been there almost 3 years, so I know they're going to replace the carpet when we leave. They always do. So why should we have to pay when they're going to replace it anyway???

I need your opinion. Should we put up a fuss if they say we have to pay to replace the carpet? Or should we have to pay because our dog ruined it ... *cough* eventhoughthey'rereplacingitanyway.... *cough*.

Help please! :)

Wednesday, December 1, 2010

An update for the sake up updating

HAPPY DECEMBER! I started listening to Christmas music over the weekend... so it has begun. I'm having a hard time getting into the "holiday spirit" becuase of the impending move and not decorating for Christmas, but I'll deal with it, and next year... it'll be on like donkey kong at our NEW house!

I hope everyone had a happy Thanksgiving! I had 5 whole days off and it felt like an eternity. I was actually ready to go back to work! Crazy right? But I discovered that the more time I have on my hands, the less I accomplish. I'm so driven by deadlines and being under pressure. I also thrive by being productive and feeling accomplished.

We had Thanksgiving with Eric's family, came home that same night, and spent the next 3 days at our place just doing a lot of nothing. Ok - we did start packing up the apartment, but I only took down decorations, packed up all of our books, and most of the "office" area.

(it doesn't look very "packed up" to me, but after emptying the shelves of books I put most of our decorations on them, to be packed up later)

Other than that, things are just the same around here. We have about 3 weeks till we move, and I have every weekend planned with something to pack up. Eric is going to start on the road next week, and he found out yesterday that his first shift is mids, which is the night shift. He'll bascially be leaving for work when I get home from work. Thankfully that will only be until January, but it'll require some adjustment I'm sure.

Sorry I've been an absent blogger latley - I'll try to be better! :) Trust me, I still enjoy logging in every so often and reading your blogs, even if I don't update mine.

On the schedule for this weekend is packing up our bedroom (closets/junk drawers) and maybe under the bathroom sink too!