Friday, July 30, 2010

Friday housekeeping

Today I'm just finishing up a bunch of projects at the office before I LEAVE EARLY! Yay! Unfortunately I have an eye appointment, which I'm not looking forward to. I hate getting my eyes dilated... I'm temporarily blind for several hours. Ugh! But after that I have a nail appointment, and then we're leaving for Tampa tonight! Can't wait to see my sis and nephew and have some mexican food/margaritas/movies tonight!

You have to check out these awesome giveaways going on! I have yet to win one, but here's to hoping. They are awesome!

#1) The Undomestic Momma is giving away a $50 Chili's gift card. YUM. I love Chili's... I wish they had more low-fat/healthy-friendly menu items, but I can never resist their chips and salsa. Absolutely the best! Sometimes I pick up just the chips and salsa to take home (hmmmmmmm... maybe I'll do that tonight...).

Anyway, visit her blog to check it out!

#2) Danielle is having a fab giveaway as well - this one is for Scentsy stuff! I have one of these and love it. They have the best smells and it's great for the office when you can't burn candles! Check it out here!

Happy Friday!

Thursday, July 29, 2010

A little update

A little update on Eric's job hunt/situation: He had an interview yesterday with the Orange County Sheriff's Office. Apparently it went well. The process to get hired on at one of these law enforcement agencies is ridiculous! He still has like 3 or 4 more tests to take before they even make a "conditional" offer.

Eric was cute and surprised me by stopping by the office yesterday afternoon, after his interview. He was all dressed up in his new suit and looked so good. :) I'm not used to seeing him in anything other than a uniform or regular casual clothes, but he was lookin' good all dressed up.

So today I parted my hair on the opposite side that I normally do... not sure what I think about it. It's nice for a change, but my hair is so "trained" to part on the other side that it's hard to work with!

What do you think (besides the fact that I look high in this pic)?

Anyway, today I am meeting my friend Tiffany for lunch,and tomorrow is Friday!! Tomorrow I get out of work at 2:45 for the day because I have an eye appointment at 3:00 and my supervisor said I could go early. I'm also so happy that class is over for the week... I cant't believe next week is the LAST week of this class! Of course I only have a week off and then the Fall semester begins... oh well!

I'm excited for this weekend! I might get to see my friend Sarah, I'm having lunch with Jen on Saturday, and seeing the family the rest of the time. It all sounds so wonderful right now!

Tuesday, July 27, 2010

Be as you are

Sometimes, I get tired of trying to be perfect. I get tired of seeing people I know, many who are good friends, lead their perfect lives. I often wonder how long it will last. I crave real friendships... the kind where you share your problems, your fears, your shortcomings, your arguments and fights... not hide them. You don't pretend bad things don't happen, that life isn't hard sometimes. You don't have the perfect wardrobe. Your hair and makeup are a mess sometimes. Your manicure is chipped. You need a haircut. You can vent about your boss and a crappy Monday on your blog and not feel like you're depressing everyone who reads it.

Because that is my life, with the rose-colored glasses taken off. I don't apologize for that. This morning I snapped at my husband twice before 7AM. Of course it wasn't anything serious and two seconds later we were k-i-s-s-i-n-g again, but that is real life. We argue. We kiss and make up. And we're better off because of it, believe it or not.

I just miss that realness.

This weekend we are going to Tampa to see my family, and I'm so excited. Sometimes you just want to be with people who know you and that you don't have to impress, yaknow? People who are there for you always, who don't care if you lounge around in sweats, or wear t-shirts and jeans to go out to dinner. I guess I'm just tired of people's "perfect" lives, and want a dose of reality. I can't wait. :)

"Let the world know you as you are, not as you think you should be, because sooner or later, if you are posing, you will forget the pose, and then where are you?"
 ~Fanny Brice

Monday, July 26, 2010

Cotton candy clouds on Monday morning

So I love how I can have a fantastic weekend and it all goes to shit when I open my office door Monday morning. I even had a good run this morning which is supposed to give you all these endorphins and boost your metabolism and make you calm and serene and think about unicorns and cotton candy clouds.

That lasted all of 30 minutes today.

I wasn't in the office 5 minutes when I get frantic emails from the CEO, who had a conference call at 8:30AM with some other CEO's. Someone else is on her conference call line. Another person is getting a fax dial tone when they call in. What is her pin number? What is GOING ON Stephanie??!? Because you're supposed to know-all and be-all for everyone, right? Ohhh yeah. That was the line in my job description that says, "Other duties as required". Forgot about that.

The cherry on top is when she sends an email to me and copies my immediate supervisor saying "This is embarassing. It's the second time this has happened." All that makes me want to do is say "Psssh" to her face and ask her when I was promoted to the title of "Perfect, all-knowing, incapable of making mistakes Executive Assistant". Because I apparently missed that memo. Not to mention I've got other priorities this morning, such as setting up for a meeting which said supervisor is having, rescheduling 3 days worth of meetings for the her (frantic CEO) who had to go to Tallahassee at the last minute, and oh yeah, doing payroll so that all of our employees get paid this week. No biggie though. Don't sweat your conference call line. I'll "get to the bottom of this", as you requested.

I need a promotion.

Or hazzard pay.

Or, a vacation somewhere where cell phones don't work.

Dear Monday, I hate you.

Love, Me.

Friday, July 23, 2010


I have been feeling a little "off" lately. I've only worked out once this week, because I haven't been feeling too hot. Wednesday afternoon I got a headache and it lasted all day, even though I took some Motrin. Thursday, I still had the headache. I went running before work, and then felt like total crap all day. I took a super strong Motrin in the morning, and two more Tylenol in the afternoon. I was a little nervous that I was taking too much, but nothing was helping!

When I got home I just laid in bed for about 30 minutes. I got up to make dinner, and tried to open a jar and couldn't. I got mad and started crying and went over to cuddle with Eric. He was so super sweet and just asked if I wanted to watch a movie in bed and cuddle. We ate dinner out of cans and boxes so I didn't have to do anything, and watched Bad Lieutenant. It was nice.

I'm feeling better this morning, just tired because I took a muscle relaxer last night before bed. Someone posted on my facebook that I may be feeling like this because of the impending tropical storm and the barometric pressure. I've never heard of that before, but apparently a "barometric pressure headache" it is a real thing. Hmmm. Interesting.

I do have good news though! I'm almost done with page 3 of my final essay, which means I only have 2.5 more pages to finish. I've been writing little bits at a time, at work or whenever I can. I think I have plenty to write about, but doing the citations in the correct format (MLA) is kind of confusing. OH! I got my midterm paper back (the timed, written essay) and got another A! I was stoked about that.

This weekend we don't have anything planned because I'll probably be working on my essay most of it. We are going to some friends house Saturday night, but I'm really looking forward to relaxing.

Happy Friday!

Wednesday, July 21, 2010

Never too late

"For what it’s worth... it’s never too late or, in my case, too early to be whoever you want to be. There’s no time limit, stop whenever you want. You can change or stay the same, there are no rules to this thing. We can make the best or the worst of it. I hope you make the best of it. And I hope you see things that startle you. I hope you feel things you never felt before. I hope you meet people with a different point of view. I hope you live a life you’re proud of. If you find that you’re not, I hope you have the strength to start all over again."

- Benjamin Button

(thank you Amber for this inspiration)

Sunday, July 18, 2010

lazy sunday.

Annotated bibliographies can wait.

Puppy cuddles can't. <3

Friday, July 16, 2010


Seriously, thank GOD it's Friday! I am so tired! I haven't been sleeping well at night recently. There is no particular reason, but if I have a lot going on I tend to be in "thinking mode" as soon as my head hits the pillow. I think about school projects, work, Eric's future job/offers, cleaning the house, my personal "to-do" list... omg the list is endless.

To make matters worse, I can't sleep past 6AM anymore, since that is the time I get up to work out. But if there is a day I DON'T work out, I still am wide awake at 6! Usually on weekends I get up early, let the dogs out, bring them back into our bed so they'll be quiet and sleep with us, and sleep in for a few more hours. So, needless to say, I'm looking forward to sleeping in tomorrow!

Oooh, I decided to listen to my ipod on "shuffle" all songs, and I am loving all these old songs I never hear anymore! Like right now, 'Find Me' from Boyce Avenue is playing. I love it!

A few things have been bugging me latley. You probably don't care, but I'm gonna write them out anyway because that tends to help me stop thinking about them as much. Besides, I decided this blog was for me and doesn't have to be particularly interesting or full of pictures. I know a lot of people do that, but sometimes I don't have any pictures but still want to write. I decided to tell myself that's ok. ;) Because it is.

Problem #1: Eric's job change coming up in September. Here is the deal: he is getting out of the military on "terminal leave" in September, with his official end date being in October. (That means he has leave saved up and is getting out early and they are paying him for his last few weeks of PTO without him having to be there.) Anyway, he has applied at 3 or 4 police departments, and so far one has responded - he even has an interview on the 28th with that department. The only problem is, they don't pay as much as some of the others (well, one in particular) and therefore he would take a paycut if he accepts that offer. The one *I* want to respond and hire him pays the closest to what he is making now, and I am still crossing my fingers that they will contact him soon. That department is also the biggest, and so it would logically take them longer to respond. So there is still hope, in my opinion... but geeze louise, they are taking their sweet time!

And THEN, as if that little situation was not complicated enough, there is a totally seperate non-police officer job he has been offered up at Cape Caneveral, almost no-questions-asked. The people working there love him and are BEGGING him to take that job. It would bascially be the same job he does now in the military (military police -- head of physical security on the base), but as a civillian, and it pays significantly MORE than he makes now. As you can assume, I am most excited about this job. I mean c'mon. There is more money involved and less danger (it's bascially an office job)! Hellooo??! He agreed to put in his resume and an application and just see what happens.

Despite the money factor, I am still conflicted. I stressed to Eric over and over that, regardless of the money, he needs to enjoy what he does. I don't want him to take the higher-paying job, but come home each day saying "I hate my job - I wish I were a cop". His whole life he's wanted to be a police officer. I honestly can't even imagine him doing anything else. Yes, I'm scared of him being a police officer, especially in Orlando. But at the same time, I'd be so proud to tell people my husband is a police officer. See? Conflict.

On top of ALL of that, there is waiting. Not knowing. Wondering who will pick him up first and offer the most money. Which one should he take? The almost guaranteed job at the Cape with the most money which would enable us to buy a house and start a family ASAP... but he might be unhappy? Or a police job in which we'd have to delay all of those things... but he would love it. Ohhh, I just don't know.

Last night Eric said he feels like he's 18 again and has almost every option out in front of him. He could do anything he wants to. It's like he's starting over, and the possibilities are endless! How exciting that is for him... and how nervewracking it is for his wife. :)

Ok, I decided that problem was long enough for one day, no need to post about the others right now.

Enjoy your Friday, and have a GREAT weekend, my lovley blog friends! xoxoxo

Thursday, July 15, 2010

It's been a busy week

This week both of my supervisors are out at a conference in Vegas (*jealous*), so I had a very ambitious list to accomplish while they were gone. I've gotten a lot done, but have a lot more to do and only two days left to do it! One of my FAVORITE things is crossing things off a "to do" list. It's so exciting! :)

The cool thing is my supervisor said that next year, *I* get to go to this conference in Vegas. Wahoo! Now, the key will be if I'm pregnant by then or not... that could put a damper on things. ;)

Today is my nephew JJ's 3rd birthday! I can hardly believe he's three years old already. I'm going to steal the collage my mom made on her blog, it's so cute! I love this little man!

My favorite picture is the bottom left... he was so excited about seeing some little chicks! He has FINALLY started saying "Aunt Steffi" (or "Teffi")...which is AWESOME! :) Hehe. Being an aunt is so fun!

Today I have a dr's appointment, then I'm meeting Eric for lunch. Should be a good day! I have three projects for school due by next Wednesday, and a persuasion/argument essay to work on for the following week. Last night was the "midterm" and we had 50 minutes to write a timed essay. I think it went pretty good!

It's almost the weekend! I can't wait! I have a massage on Saturday morning and Amira has a "hair appointment" at noon. :)

Tuesday, July 13, 2010

Giveaway winner!

I wrote all the names down...

...drew one...

... and the winner is:

... Steph @ Flip Flop Chic! Congratulations girl! :) Email me your info and I will have the Mary Kay Coconut Lime set mailed right to your door next week. Email me at: studio785 (at) juno (dot) com.

Thanks to everyone who entered my inagural giveaway. It was fun and I will definitely do more in the future!

On another note, we got our first essay back after class last night, and I got a score of 18 out of 20! I was so excited. It makes me feel a little bit more confident about my writing and the three projects that are due next week (eek!). The week marks the halfway point of this class already - gotta love summer classes!

Monday, July 12, 2010

Starting on the second-half of 50...

.... because I already have the first half down! :) Woohoo for 25!

My birthday was fun! No, I don't feel older, really. Ok maybe a little bit after tubing on Saturday. Every muscle in my upper body is SCREAMING at me when I move it. But it was worth it!

My wonderful Mother in Law

Unfortuantely we have no action shots of us tubing... I was too afraid to lose the camera!

Callie out on the tube

After a fun day in the sun, we took showers and headed to dinner at Grills Tiki Bar on the water. It was great food and a fun atmosphere.

Eric's family... Mom, Nino and Mikael. (they gave me $100 for my birthday and it's burning a hole in my wallet! Hehehe. Can't wait to go shopping! I have to thank people for my other birthday gifts too... my mom got me a cute little tote bag, which has lots of little pockets I could use for cosmetics, etc., Eric is paying for me to get a massage this weekend (and for the boat rental from my party), my supervisor at work got me flowers and some Princess House pink flower-shaped dishes. Thanks everyone!)

Eric, me, Callie and Rams (avoiding the camera)

On my real birthday, which was Sunday, we slept in, had lunch at Moe's and then watched Spain win the World Cup (yay!). Eric had to go into work for a few hours so I went for a run, took a bath, did some homework, talked to bff Sarah on the phone, had a 20-minute conversation with some Mormon's trying to convert me at the door, and watched Bethenny Getting Married. It was a fun weekend!

Also, if you haven't entered my Coconut-Lime giveaway, do so today, because I'm drawing the winner tomorrow! :)

Happy Monday!

Friday, July 9, 2010

Things I'm loving

Early morning sunrises after a good run

(You can barely see the sun in this picture, but it was huge and BRIGHT orange! Gorgeous!)

These girlies

Flowers with pink water in the vase

The fact that we'll be doing this tomorrow afternoon!

Watching movies with this guy tonight

Eating juicy watermelon :)

Turning 25

HaPpY fRiDaY!

Thursday, July 8, 2010

A happy little surprise

Last night I had class, turned in my paper, and will have to wait for the results. I'm nervous, but I'm sure it'll be fine.

As I got to my car after class and opened the car door, look what I found!

Pretty flowers and a note from my hubby! :)

In case you can't read it, it says "I AM SOOOO PROUD OF YOU BABE!! (Written on a lotto card because I won the perfect woman lottery when I married you!)" ♥

What a sweetheart I snagged. :)

Tuesday, July 6, 2010

Tuesday's stuff

First of all, thanks for the overwhelming support to continue blogging. I still feel conflicted over the whole issue, but for now I'm just going to take my time, not feel pressure to post something every day, not care about comments or followers, and write for me. This is a work in progress.

And now, the following are completely random and unrelated thoughts. Posting in lists is the only way I could possibly get out what I'm thinking and feeling right at this moment.

Because I'm good at lists, that's for sure.

* I think I'm done with my narrative essay. I just want to read over it one more time before I turn it in on Wednesday. I am so, totally nervous about getting graded in college for the first time. I think the paper is pretty good, but I'll either be totally wrong about that or maybe a little right when I find out the grade. I'm nervoussssssssssss.

* I got a $10 gift card from Victoria's Secret for my birthday. Not sure what I'm gonna use it for, but I'll be perusing their website shortly I'm sure.

* I need to post a winner for my giveaway. I will this week, I promise.

* Last night I went for a run and got covered in gnats. I got one in my eye, a few in my nose, teeth and hair. I was continually wiping them off my forehead. Then when I got inside I looked in the mirror and my neck looked like I sprinkled pepper on it. So gross. I jumped in the cold shower ASAP.

* I'm kinda depressed about the weather latley. We didn't get to see fireworks on the 4th because it was raining (not that I felt like fighting the crowds anyway). But really, I'm worried about my birthday party this Saturday. Right now they're saying there's a 40/50% chance, which isn't bad really. But we have to make a decision 24 hours before or we lose the deposit on the boat we're renting. Ugh. Please don't rain! If it does rain, I'm super tempted to move it to the next weekend. A low-key weekend with nothing to do kinda sounds... amazing. Right now only three friends can come anyway, and three more could probably come if I moved it. I just don't know. It's not like turning 25 is a big deal anyway... all I get is lower car insurance!

* I'm starting over on the blog background. I may never be satisfied.

* And yes, again to remind myself, I'm going to turn 25 this Sunday. I feel old.

Thursday, July 1, 2010

To blog or not to blog

I'm not trying to be a debbie downer today. I mean after all this is my Friday and I have a 4-day weekend packed with fun things coming up! I think things in my "real life" are great, but this blogging thing has me confused and frustrated.

It started when I was sooo bummed I only got 3 entries in my giveaway. I was expecting so much more than that. I'm still going to remind people to sign up, but if no one else does, I guess those who did have a 1 in 3 chance of winning.

So that got me started going downhill.

Then, I came across some great blogs this week. I constantly scrutinize myself against them... their blog design, their writing style, ultra-creative posts, the number of followers they have... the list is endless.

Finally, yesterday when I posted about the two police offers who died, all of two people commented. The story I posted was something really meanginful to me and I assumed it would be to everyone else too.

Maybe that is my problem - that I am expecting too much. I am writing for other people and not myself. I want other people to care and they don't. I'm comparing myself to others too much. I am not exactly sure. All I know is I'm totally frustrated.

Last night my hubby really liked my post about the police officers, and said "great post babe" when I walked in the door. So I then vented about all the things I was frustrated about and said "I don't know if I want to keep blogging anymore."

And I truly don't know. He encouraged me to keep blogging, because he likes reading them (and because he's my darling, supportative husband). But is he the only one? I mean c'mon. I have met some cool friends, but the only way I know them is through what they type on the screen. I don't really "know" them. They are nice and it's intersesting to learn about all of these people, but sometimes I don't think I'm very interesting.

Also, I don't feel like I can write about anything I want. I have people who read this blog who are friends and family (and who have blogs) and sometimes I just want to vent. But I can't. There are some friends I'm worried about/frustrated with right now, and I can't write about it. That doesn't feel right. (now all of my friends are wondering... is she talking about me? haha.)

I think I like commenting on other blogs more than writing on my own. I like posting things here at there, like tomorrow I'll probably post a July 4th thing for the troops. But when it comes to writing about my own life, sometimes I don't think it's enough.

So right now, I'm confused and kinda *blah* on this whole thing. We'll see where this takes me.